Going THROUGH it with me

    Was reminded this week that because my God has promised never to leave me, in ALL situations whether hard or not, he is going through them with me, not watching me struggle through-but rather taking me through them, by his grace. I'm never alone. I forget how much he loves me so often. Why is it the dumb little truths like "God is always WITH US" that are so silly but so true and yet so hard to grasp and actually LIVE OUT when we're in a valley? Why do we drudge through life like we're knee deep in mud and struggle so much? We could just give our cares to Jesus, but we don't. Our pride gets in the way and we think we're big enough to manage our circumstances on our own. 

Oh, how wrong we are.

    I learned about a family who lost their baby a few days after he was born and it broke my heart (having heard about this while being pregnant, I can't imagine how bad that would hurt.) BUT I was reminded of how great God is-in us, that no problem or pain or trial is too big for him. We forget that we have a mighty god who cares for us, who walks through life with us. When I'm having a particularly hard day and feel like such an energy-less loser of a mother, I need to take a deep breath and focus on casting my anxieties on him instead of carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. 

(I'm so glad I have a friend who helps me refocus my heart. Thank you Sarah C.)

     I've felt super exhausted and on edge this week. I think the long days with a toddler sometimes weigh on me so heavily. I'm so thankful that my husband is going back to school to finish his masters, BUT it gets hard. We learned that his company laid off 100 people company wide this week and are feeling SO thankful that his job was spared. When I met his boss a few weeks ago he was telling me that Dustin does the job of three people and they can't afford to lose him. It makes me smile to know how valued he is. I treated myself (to a few pieces) of sushi last night while I watched Vampire Diaries. Then I practically ate a whole cucumber with sesame seed oil on it and then made myself an avocado salad. 

I can't get enough greens this week. It's all I've been wanting.

 I'm kind of feeling like his hair is starting to look like Harry's from Dumb and Dumber....

See the resemblance? 

He's getting his hair cut tomorrow.

 I think he's offended that I compared him to Jeff Daniel's. 

 I heard that small still voice tell me I needed to put these back when I was checking out, but I didn't listen and instead have been sneaking handfuls of them so my toddler wouldn't know what I was eating. 

The bag is nearly empty. The guilt is setting in.

 Yesterday was a crummy day. I was at my wits end and decided we needed to veg-out and watch Sponge Bob. Conrad decided it was pounce on Mommy's belly day. He thinks his sister/brother is a trampoline.  I don't get it. The kid wont stay off of my stomach!

 I scored this black and white dress for $10 this week and put a belt below my belly so people

 would know I was pregnant and not just chunky. 

 Thank  you Sponge Bob for helping me get some rest when my 2 year old is driving me nuts.

I'm going to the dentist today and couldn't be more excited about it. I LOVE the dentist. 

{Have a great weekend dolls.}