but the last few days have really driven me over the edge....
From the time he was born up until he was about 11 months, I was his world. Now, he doesn't even know I exist. Every time I try to rock him to sleep, feed him, sit next to him while he eats his dinner, change his diaper, you name it HE CRIES. But once I hand him off to Dustin, he's as quiet as can be.
At first I thought it was cute and it made me feel all warm and fuzzy,
and now It just pisses me off.
who carried you for nine months?
who went through 24 hours of labor to bring your alien shaped head into this world?
who blended fresh fruits and veggies to your liking for your belly to enjoy?
Who gave you breast milk for 6 months?!
ME! I did!
and this is what I get? A baby who lunges out of my arms towards your father, kicking and screaming, clawing and scratching me to get away anytime he's in the room.
You seem to always want your Dad INSTEAD of me! It's just rude!
I get that you and your dad have these magical, father-son times together when you think I'm not watching.....but I'm watching, and it's not cute- IT'S RUDE!
Why can't Mommy have warm-fuzzies with you?
I know your Dad does "Mr. Cup-hand man" voice in the bath tub and throws foam letters at the wall like throwing stars, but I can do those things too!
I'm cool like Daddy! I can do Mr. Cup-hand Man voice too!
I know you and Dad have your little "make out" sessions, and you think he's the coolest guy in town, But I like getting snuggles and kisses too!
Where's Mommy's slobbery kisses?!
I really don't know what to make of this preference thing. It's sweet, but it's kind of frustrating in the middle of the night when he's had a fever and he's crying and throwing his body off of my lap in every direction, red faced and covered in tears, drool and slobber.....until I finally call Dustin into the room. Right when he goes to Dad, he's calm as can be.
Literally, the instant that he falls into his Dad's arms,
he sighs and closes his eyes. WTF?!?!
He's also started crying when Dustin goes to work in the morning.
Which is totally awesome by the way.
I've been traded for Mr. Cup-hand Man.
It's super depressing actually.
I don't get it!