Friday, August 12

Written Like Wedding Vows.

2 "Plead with your mother, plead -- for she is not my wife, and I am not her husband -- that she put away her harlotry from her face, and her adultery from between her breasts; 3 lest I strip her naked and make her as in the day she was born, and make her like a wilderness, and set her like a parched land, and slay her with thirst.

4 Upon her children also I will have no pity, because they are children of harlotry.
5 For their mother has played the harlot; she that conceived them has acted shamefully. For she said, 'I will go after my lovers, who give me my bread and my water, my wool and my flax, my oil and my drink.'
6 Therefore I will hedge up her way with thorns; and I will build a wall against her, so that she cannot find her paths.
7 She shall pursue her lovers, but not overtake them; and she shall seek them, but shall not find them. Then she shall say, 'I will go and return to my first husband, for it was better with me then than now.'
8 And she did not know that it was I who gave her the grain, the wine, and the oil, and who lavished upon her silver and gold which they used for Ba'al.
9 Therefore I will take back my grain in its time, and my wine in its season; and I will take away my wool and my flax, which were to cover her nakedness. 10 Now I will uncover her lewdness in the sight of her lovers, and no one shall rescue her out of my hand.
11 And I will put an end to all her mirth, her feasts, her new moons, her sabbaths, and all her appointed feasts. 12 And I will lay waste her vines and her fig trees, of which she said, 'These are my hire, which my lovers have given me.' I will make them a forest, and the beasts of the field shall devour them.
13 And I will punish her for the feast days of the Ba'als when she burned incense to them and decked herself with her ring and jewelry, and went after her lovers, and forgot me, says the LORD. 14 "Therefore, behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak tenderly to her."
15 And there I will give her her vineyards, and make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. And there she shall answer as in the days of her youth, as at the time when she came out of the land of Egypt.
16 "And in that day, says the LORD, you will call me, 'My husband,' and no longer will you call me, 'My Ba'al.'
17 For I will remove the names of the Ba'als from her mouth, and they shall be mentioned by name no more.
18 And I will make for you a covenant on that day with the beasts of the field, the birds of the air, and the creeping things of the ground; and I will abolish the bow, the sword, and war from the land; and I will make you lie down in safety.

19 And I will betroth you to me for ever; I will betroth you to me in righteousness and in justice, in steadfast love, and in mercy.

20 I will betroth you to me in faithfulness; and you shall know the LORD.
21 "And in that day, says the LORD, I will answer the heavens and they shall answer the earth;
22 and the earth shall answer the grain, the wine, and the oil, and they shall answer Jezreel;
23 and I will sow him for myself in the land. And I will have pity on Not pitied, and I will say to Not my people, 'You are my people'; and he shall say 'Thou art my God.'"
-Hosea Ch. 2

I never understood why Dustin loved this chapter so much, but this is by far his very favorite thing in the bible. For some reason I decided to read it the other day while soaking in a hot bath (while trying to express milk from my rock hard stuff right?) I don't think I've ever been so moved before, or so overwhelmed with a feeling of awe just realizing how utterly jealous my god is for my affection, knowing the lengths that he will go to pull my eyes away from the things that distract me, the things that I worship instead of worshiping Him. Dustin has said many times that if our eyes aren't focused on Jesus, He will do whatever it takes to draw us back to himself. I loved how after reading his chapter, I felt like it read like wedding vows. I love how romantic these words read. It sounds so much like a love letter than anything else and I love that. I've never quite looked at my relationship with god as a "father to daughter" relationship, (something I want to talk more about in a later post.) But as I read these words, I couldn't help but feel "wooed" by God, and loved by him.

In other news. I'm feeling AMAZING. Elliotte is such a little fuzzy, sweet, peach monkey butt and I'm SO so utterly in love. I don't think I set her down the entire first week. I slept with her, I bathed with her, dropped crumbs of food on her face as she nursed and I ate, I wore her, kissed every sweet little inch of her....I am SO smitten with my little lady, you have no idea. I want to have like a gazillion more babies! We had a really hard 2 nights in the first week where she was up ALL night crying. I've cut out dairy, onions and chocolate from my diet and it seems to help. My good friend Janelle came over one night to help me with lactation stuff getting Elle to latch onto my one funky nip but Things are going fabulous, (other than cracked, bloody, sore, nips that are on fire every time she eats!) But hey, I keep telling myself, If I gave birth to her "Au natural" I can handle these achin' nippies. I've been ULTRA weepy, but good weepy not depressed weepy. I've been a blubbering mess, it's half way embarrassing. I've watched my birth video probably 4 times now and cried each time. It truly was the best day of my life. She FINALLY has a middle name. Dustin chose it. We're going to call her Elliotte Rosalee. It's girlie and her big round eyes are like roses so it fits. Conrad loves her. When we ride in the car, he goes, "Look E-WEE-IT! Air planes!" It's super cute. Having two little ones has been so much fun.

*Thank you for all of the sweet comments and prayers on the blog!
I cried multiple times while reading them and felt so blessed.


  1. She is so, so beautiful. You are truly blessed. I'm so proud of you for having her at home. You did it!

  2. So beautiful, all of it! Congratulations, again!

    I'm sure you're up to your eyeballs in advice—and everyone's body is different—but I found warm compresses and fenugreek to be really helpful with lactation. Fenugreek didn't seem to make me produce more milk so much as it made things easier and much more comfortable.

    ~ Noelle

  3. Oh this bring tears to my eyes. I feel so warmy and fuzzy just reading about your sweet baby girl. It brings back such fond memories of when my little liv was just that.. little. I miss it, the snuggles, the nursing, the wanting to be held all the time.

    I admire your desire to have a natural birth, I want to feel empowered to go and do it for my one day second child, i just dont know if i have the power and I want to have .. it eats me up

  4. She is lovely! Also that is one of my favs parts of the bible. I go to it over and over again!

  5. Isn't He good. I was in high school when I first understood the concept of the Lord wooing me. It's something I lose sight of often, but when I allow it to happen, I'm awe-struck.

  6. so beautiful & sweet!! I feel like I could have a million babies too. haha. I LOVE your ring sling! Have you tried it with her head on the other side-- snuggled between the fabric right under the rings? That's how I wear mine because it gives hands-free head support. elliotte is a dreeeeam!!

  7. You are so loved. How wonderful to read about your new baby, adventures and insights.
    It's 'Us FOUR birds' now... I betcha 1 gazillion people have made that comment.

  8. I love that top picture. You look so sweet with your lovely lady.

    And while I'm more comfortable with thinking of God as a father, I rarely think of him as someone who woos us... good words to keep in mind.

  9. Love Elliotte Rosealee, such a sweet sweet name. I think the wave of emotions happens after giving birth, but especially after having a baby girl. I know it did when I had my daughter. And I am still weepy, even till this day I get all teary eyed when sappy things happen. :)

  10. this is absolutely beautiful. what a precious picture, too. and her name is so sweet. congratulations again :)